99:1 day

99 days out of a hundred I am strong.  Today is a 100th day.  I asked my husband to leave, and I'm pretty sure he would characterize it as "I kicked him out?"  Which sounds like I rejected him.  When we first separated, he wanted to take me out, wanted to rebuild our relationship, sent me fb messages that "our best days are ahead."  That was 10 months age.  Lately, it's like I don't exist.  He doesn't pay me the money he's supposed to, he doesn't acknowledge texts, doesn't respond to voice mail, and certainly doesn't take my calls.  My more rational part knows that this behavior says much more about him than it does about me.  This is his passive/aggressive pattern in a different outfit.  He's moving on with his life, which means that he's taking his same behavior patterns and using them on a different person.  My less rational part feels dumped.  And maybe that's what he's trying to do, I don't know.  But once again, I am left with his behavior impacting my life.  He won't return my calls, so I'm left with the choice of either leaving his stuff in my basement, or taking on the work of getting rid of it.  Either way, he doesn't have to do anything, and I get stuck with the work and the expense of getting rid of it.  So frustrating.